This morning was a good morning. I was able to sit quietly in a corner with my cup of coffee and read the Bible. I have been reading through the Bible in a year. Today as I read, 2 Chronicles 20:12 struck me hard; especially the last phrase.
"We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon you."
Jehoshaphat is faced with going to battle with an enemy. He is vastly outnumbered, and the enemy troops are better equipped and prepared than his. Rather than fret or worry, Jehoshaphat calls the people of Judah to a time or prayer and fasting. During this time, He prays a corporate prayer with the above phrase in it.
After reading this, I immediately wrote it down in the front cover of my journal. It exemplifies how I feel most of the time. I don't have a clue what I should do to reach lost people, to plant a church, to lead a group, to represent God, and sometimes to even be a Christian, but I try to keep my eyes on Him.
I think this might be the secret to leadership: keep your eyes on Jesus and keep listening to what God tells you to do.
So many times we try to replace God's ways with man-made methods. Business models are great and necessary. Systems and structures and time-lines are necessary. But sometimes God steps outside of these things and does something out of the norm. We have to be prepared for them by listening to His voice. Then we have to be willing to step out and do what we have been told to do.
It is always interesting to read the journals and thoughts of historical figures. It is amazing to me that these men and women, who demonstrate such resolve and determination, are often insecure and struggle with their own inadequacy to the task. Francis Asbury, the man who established Methodism as THE religion in the United States, was extremely insecure. His biography is an historical must read for church planters. Check it out here: America's Bishop by Darius Salter. (My name is in the front pages for helping with the book).
I remember the months before planting my church and the first year or so. I was absolutely a pain in the...well, you know. I thought I knew everything about church planting. I read the books and websites and researched and all that, but I hadn't planted. Now, as I face my second church plant, I recognize how absolutely inadequate I am to the task. We are all inadequate to the task; only great egotism and pride tells us otherwise.
Take a few moments. Push away from the computer and close your eyes. Then just say those words to yourself several times. "We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon you." Reflect on that for a few moments. Then thank God for providing.